How sad I am :(
Forgive me for still loving you this bad, for wanting you to come back. Forgive me for still missing you by torturing myself every night reminiscing things that we both had together. Forgive me for still having a special spot for you in my heart. Forgive me for still mentioning your name in my prayers each time I talk to God, begging Him to bring you back to me. Forgive me for still shedding tears whenever I think of you, for still feeling the clenches in my stomach whenever I hear about you. Forgive me for still not grasping the fact that the person that I had grown to love is now a stranger to me. You had been my drugs for so long and it just hurts you know to do things without you. The pain of missing you is really excruciating. You’re just one irreplaceable love I will always have. You know how much you mean to me, how much love I have given out for you, how attached I am to you, how amazing I think you have always been.
I know I will not be able to say this to you but if you ever get to read this,
I love you, A
….even when ending has taken its place, even when everything is going all hopeless between us now
